Today, it was a struggle to find a subject to draw or paint. I had a dentist’s appointment and was in no mood. However, when I finally sat down at the desk where I paint, I noticed the sketch of my wife, I did last night. I got out the big paper and decided to […]
Had a scare today. While I was at work when I got a call that our loved one’s (C’s) status had changed. She is in hospice care at home. When I got there, C’s breathing was very shallow. She wasn’t moving and did not respond beyond some slurred words, when questioned. Just yesterday was having a […]
We have been having trouble with cancer lately. Suffice it to say hospice care is the order of the day. Our afflicted loved one is in good spirits, even if not feeling that well. She likes to “tell it like it is” as well as to be told the straight story, without sugar coating. She is […]
Yesterday I expressed my difficulties dealing with decisions that must be made when one prepares an advanced healthcare directive. I saw this sign in the hospital today. I wish it were that easy.
We met with the palliative care folks today. They talked a lot about the Advanced Healthcare Directive. The gist of it is, you can change your mind at any point, but if you have decided, for example, that you don’t want to be revived, you put it in your directive, if you become unconscious, your loved ones can just […]
What would you do to hang on to life? The procedure didn’t work. Breath won’t come easier. Scratches down the throat on the inside, pain of healing an invasion, for nothing. Where to from here?
My wife and I saw ‘The Bucket List’ with Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman. It was a heartwarming story indeed. In reality, unless one finds a billionaire buddy or is a billionaire one’s self, there is a limit to accomplishing one’s life’s ambitions before one dies. Therefore, one necessarily must limit the scope of a so-called […]
I think Mom would have liked this one, although it is a far cry from the painting I gave her just a year ago for her 90th birthday. She would have been 91 today, if she hadn’t died. See today’s other post (Mom’s Birthday) for Dave’s (my younger brother) piano rendition of Happy Birthday. Mom […]
I dream in vivid images. They are very detailed when I am dreaming them, less so after I awake. Last night’s dream was a situation. I had died, which was a bit uncomfortable, but alive in another body, still my own. I felt very alive, but aware that one day I would have to go […]
Today’s watercolor experiment: Dad died 8 years ago today (by the lunar calendar). I lit a candle and tried drawing him from memory. Dad had a distinctive face and, of all the people I’ve (tried to) sketch, he seemed to be the easiest for me. Seemed to be… After I finished the portrait, I showed it […]
