Loneliness

There is nothing worse than putting your heart out there only to realize that no one cares. I happened upon the scene below in Central Park in the late 1980s. The puppeteer in the curtained stage clearly expected a crowd, as evidenced by the wire leading to the speaker on the ground.  No one came. Maybe […]

Stunt Posters Graffiti

Today’s watercolor experiment: During my wanderings around New York City in the 1990s, when I lived there, I would sometimes find scenes that had a combination of image and information that mirrored my inner thoughts.  Perhaps such themes are omnipresent but require just the right frame of mind to see, understand and photograph. I remember the building […]

Gesture Study

I overwhelmed myself yesterday, trying to catalog images of hands to incorporate into a “Hand Atlas“.  My first mistake was trying to draw small images of hands with latex masking fluid. First of all, the scale was too small; secondly, I don’t know if it is possible to draw delicately with this medium. I almost […]

Wrinkle in Time

Perfection It was the picture perfect family event. Grandparents visiting, doting over the baby they hadn’t seen in over five months. Grandpa had a special name, distinguishing him from the other two grandfathers. His first wife had a child from a first marriage and never ever wanted to go through that experience again. There must […]

Faith

Faith is a complete trust in someone or something without requiring proof. Infants have complete trust by dint of the actions of their parents. No baby wonders whether he or she will be fed, under normal conditions. It just happens, no proof needed. Is being fed, in the world of a baby equivalent to the […]

Swings

The picture of Mike, my older brother, on the swing set in the back yard shows him looking at the camera. (I posted this picture a couple of days ago.)  He looks like a regular little boy, probably about 7 or 8 years of age. What the viewer does not see is that Michael is autistic, diagnosed […]

My Universe

Imagine My older brother Michael is autistic, low functioning and nonverbal. By ‘low functioning’ I mean, he was diagnosed as ‘profoundly retarded’. They doctors gave him that diagnosis by determining that his IQ is 18. How they came up with ‘18’ is a mystery to me, but that is another story. I picture autistic aloneness […]

Skeptic

My original thought for this post was to explore my sense of skepticism about the possibility of communicating with my older brother, Michael. He is low functioning, autistic and has never spoken.  This is a theme that I have explored before, and I am concerned about repeating myself. What I have tried to say is […]

Family Snap of Dad

I always loved this picture of my father. Dad always had this sense of wonder about nature. I suppose that was why he became a physicist. On the other hand, he wasn’t that comfortable with the real world, which is probably why he was a theoretical physicist. His real love was mathematics. After he retired […]

Getting Old Stinks

Part of my inspiration for posting this today is the blog post from Osiris Ramos (http://osirisramos.wordpress.com/): I Would Like to be Old (posted 8-23-12). A chat with Mom I started writing this post a few days ago after speaking with Mom. In fact the title of this post is a direct quote from her. Defeat […]