The portrait below is not what I hoped it would be. It is indeed quick and dirty, but it represents the aftermath of whole-brain radiation. There is some planning that goes into focusing the radiation beam, but it is not a surgically precise procedure. Redness, swelling, sweating and tiredness are part of the effects.
Yesterday I expressed my difficulties dealing with decisions that must be made when one prepares an advanced healthcare directive. I saw this sign in the hospital today. I wish it were that easy.
We met with the palliative care folks today. They talked a lot about the Advanced Healthcare Directive. The gist of it is, you can change your mind at any point, but if you have decided, for example, that you don’t want to be revived, you put it in your directive, if you become unconscious, your loved ones can just […]
Not too bad at the beginning. Lung cancer routinely spreads to the brain. Symptoms creep up slowly. A little more weakness on the right side, inability to get the words out, a bit more incoordination. Falling. Then the medical imaging confirms the spread. Most of us can touch our noses with our finger with our eyes closed. There […]
Yet another day in thrall of medical services. Successful visit to radiation therapy ended in a fall at home. A previous sprain, the cause of an earlier emergency room (ER) visit, is now a fracture. Yet another ambulance trip to the ER. The curves in the study below are fractured by fault lines. Everything is […]
It is really hard to guide a pencil point along a simple contour that represents what one’s mind sees. The studies below are an extension of yesterday’s study of shapes. In my first drawing I used ovals to draw a complete figure. I used two lines for the sketch below. The subject is the same as […]
Emergency Room again today. Not sure how the shapes below relate to the visit, but this is my art at the end of the day. Here is my own word cloud for this study: body shapes, disproportionate, disconnected, big head, keeping it together, tension, relaxed, empty, full, what is wrong. After cropping this image in Photoshop, […]
There have been occasions where my vision goes negative. All the whites go black and the blacks go white; the yellows go purple and the reds go green. Sometimes the pain level is 10.
Spent the day in the Emergency Room as an advocate for a family member. Lots of pain in there, physical and emotional. One can only sympathize with those in pain. Empathy, to feel what another person feels, is impossible. Physical pain is a private, unsharable phenomenon. One can only understand it when one has it. There […]
I originally started this blog in 2013 to record my experiences trying to reach my severely handicapped older brother, with the hope other siblings might know they are not alone with their mixed feelings. My brother Mike, as many of you already know, is very low functioning, autistic and nonverbal. I refer you, dear reader, to several […]
