Yesterday’s lesson was to clarify my relationship to the world through the marks I make and the colors I apply to paper, and not on their meaning. That is a very clear artist’s statement, but unfortunately it contains no information about how to accomplish that mission.
There must be a starting point, a first mark on the paper. The next part of my painting process is to stare at the paper and wonder what the next brush stroke should be to please to my eye. I hope there is a connection between what is pleasing to my eye and my relationship to the world.
Sometimes my paintings are successful and sometimes they are not. It is always difficult. The key is in the routine of painting. The more one paints, the more chance one has of being successful.
Oddly enough I find it is easier to impose my relationship to the world through my representation of an actual object than through an abstract idea or feeling inside my head. For example, my depiction of Arthur, my pet avocado tree, in his decrepitude, allowed me to focus on the idea of decay rather than the tree object itself.